Alzheimer’s and Yoga, A Personal Interaction

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Alzheimer’s and Yoga,  A personal Interaction     by  April Cray Rhodes

As I enter into the “home atmosphere” of the small facility that I teach chair Yoga in the B.K.S. Iyengar style , I am greeted with smiles and a warm friendly energy. I know each person by name and invite them to sit in the half circle of recliners in the living area. Respectfully knocking on individuals doors and inviting them personally (per permission from the director) to join us.

They are eager to flock to the Yoga area and see what the “hub-bub” is all about. You see, they do not remember the asanas and pranayama we did 3 days ago.

One of my favorite individuals is “Paul” (not his real name),  has a difficult time making his brain move his limbs. He is strong and muscular. His confusion is innocent. His eyes are as blue as the sea  and his laughter is with gusto.  A retired Air Force Base engineer who once was the epiphany of cutting edge aerodynamics’. You can see his gears turning under the ocean of his eyes, to make his left leg extend.

I have found that when I use creative language for Paul, he seems to manifest these commands easier.

“Let your eyes go into your leg, lift your leg straight in front of you”.

Almost always assisting him. His innocents and surrender is provocative. As his eyes speak loudly, “help me to understand”.

Tears sometimes come to my eyes, when I look over at “Paul” and see that his arms are in a “Madonna –type-square” framed around his face, when I say “Lift your arms to the sky”.  He is trying so hard and yet he is enjoying himself so much. I let him be, at those times.

There is one individual that comes over to me, sometimes while I am teaching, and gets close to me and say…”that is bullshit!” The words I return are only peace and caring.

Another individual is blind and is age 97. She storms to the half circle in her rolling walker, to feel, to be involved. I think she enjoys the picturesque language to execute the images in her mind’s eye, as her frail arms and legs reach out and up as far as she can go. She is tenacious and determined.  As she reaches to the sky or stars, her eyes follow upward, as if she is seeing her stars and her sky.

When it comes time to recline, I challenge these individuals into Marichyasana 1 at its easiest level. It is amazing to observe these individuals working hard to reach the apex of their pose.  Tender movements that blossom into aging beautiful flowers.

When it comes time for Shavasana, they relax into their recliners as I take them through a short guided imagery. Using the element of water.  A lake, an ocean or a river, that they once knew in their lives. I bring the words of nature to them. “Feel the air on your skin, hear the birds sing, feel the mist of the ocean air, let your fingertips feel the grass” In their mind they can walk, run, feel the sun and water on their skin. As a Yoga instructor we are trained to “look” at the individuals Shavasana to observe their surrender and relaxation.

I see myself in this work. Blind, confused and sometimes alone. Reaching and lengthening through the quagmire of life. Trusting a loving voice that wants only the best for me, my voice, calling out to light of life beyond the stars. At times I bellow out “That’s bullshit!”, when I really know what is best for me.

These elder, individuals have become a beacon, if you will, of light.  Arthritic fingers that have cured, worked  and provided. The lines on their faces define their laughter and sorrow, their eyes – the windows to their souls are etched in joy, pain and victory. They are ships navigating aimlessly without worry. Surrendering to the light.

They are at the end of their third trimester of life, ready for rebirth. While I am at the beginning of my third trimester.  All of my senses are actively entangled with excitement as I navigate my way with a purpose.  Sometimes stumbling through the “bullshit” while reaching to the light. Other times, washed deeply by pure life-love that resonates to the bone of scrupulosity.

Namaste’

New Mexico

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New Mexico

Where the Desert meets the Mountains.
Long distant Vistas.
Winds swoop up the crevasses of deep Arroyos.
East, sharp rays of Sun spread across the summits.
Trains rumbling through the dry Earth, as
It crys to the North and moans to the South.
Tall Pines open their arms in the vast elevations of the clouds.
White Sand whispers to the Spirit.
Sun gives way through Winter. Like a dry ice stained glass window.
Pinon is smokey-buttery. Grass fed Beef dance. Green and Red Chiles comfort the soul.
Embracing Mesquite, Agave and Cow Tongue Cacti.
Loving the long awaited rains in Summer.
The Desert gives and the Desert takes away.
Lonliness gives way to the broken heart.
The broken heart gives way to Tranquility.
Tranquility gives way back to the Desert.
Calling like a Coyote, like an Elk.
Run, until you can’t breathe anymore, like a Jack Rabbit.
Sit on the Mesa, hear the Raven’s wings pass above.
The Desert gives and the Desert takes away.
Stand in the sand, ground down through the ages.
Lift arms to the Sun.
Inhale the dry love, of, above and below.
And know.
The dry Basin air fills your lungs with desperation and victoriousness.
Hard travel, wheels dig, heels dig in.
The wind carrys me to another place. Another face that is glowing from the Sun.
Coo-ong doves calm.
Snakes scare and dare you to walk at night, in the Desert lit by a theater of Stars.
Keep moving, it’s not far now.
Tip of boots, scar-ed & curled for Life.
Snow, so, far away.
Windshield wiper blades crumble.
As I stumble to the river and see,
Where it all started and ended.
Mountain…you be the one to cry for me.
My tears are dried up.
Oh, Land of Enchantment…bless me with your Turquoise and your Sage Tea.
Heal me with your sacred words.
Lift me up with your Spring winds.
Love me with your Sun and show me how to run…
into my Crone self.
Laugh like a witch under a twisted Cedar
Cry like an old lonely northern Wolf
Taking in the wisdom that can only come from the Caleche road, dust clouded.
while horses dance
and prance around Rodeos and Radios.
Fuschia, sun Yellow, Green, Red be my palet.
Burnt orange hills, misty hues of slate and fire smoke.
Caress me to the core.
Mesquite thorns and sun bleached cattle horns..mark my pathway…. as red Ocotillo blaze my entryway with joy.
The Desert gives and the Desert takes away.

Humanity

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On a dismal cold, ice blocked Winter in Maine, January 5th 2008, my brothers,some close family and I, sat with my mother whom entered into her last breaths from ALS. In a fetal position crying like a child, unable to share my depths. Struggling with her death inside of my spirit, I had to return to New Mexico.  Soon my husband fell ill. For the next 4 years he battled a plethora of health issues and again, I sat there holding his hand as he passed away on August 23rd, 2012. My belly sobbing over his body. A myriad of emotions circled me.

These experiences have brought me closer to humanity, exposed my Karma, Spirit, Pathway to self and God-Great Spirit-Great Mystery-Universe.

With each breath, whether I am overcome with loss, walking my dogs or in Virubhadrasana 1/2/3, I am reminded that life is but a breath.

Each breath is a prayer, a thought, a gift!

Training to become a Warrior. Raising my sword of personal experience to the Stars. My feet are adorned with treads of heart and soul from the womb of the Earth. Gravity pulling me into the Mother. My sword stretches ever so higher from the depths of my ribs. Feeling the balance in the middle to my deeper self. As the Stars bestow their knowledge and the Earth nurtures, humanity sweats from my pours. Drenched in its beauty and grace, I go forth with the memories, restoring the links of the past and connecting the future.

 

Welding the links together with love. It is the self love, as a warrior, that I fear most. As I approach it each day, it is a Pulsar of light that washes me. Giving me strength for my journey.

This Self-Love is a radiant gift that enhances all of the other loves, giving these loves a deeper meaning. The love of a daughter, the love of a friend, the love of a canine companion, the love of family woven into my human fabric. Once I ignite the self human love, it connects to all other threads of love with-in my fabric.

Going to the depths, beyond the blood and bones, to the core, where the fire is.

There is an urgency to follow my heart. With morality, humanity and spirit.